Tuesday, September 20, 2016
Living on my own has fit me so well. Of course, there's still issues to iron out, but the place that I'm working at now (I started working the midnight shift around May, of course only for the $$$ extra) now allows me to, instead of just covering debts, make room for the improvements to my place or myself that I've always looked forward to - one of these, for example is, believe it or not, dental work. They've been yucky all my life, that is something that I had overlooked so far! But it's now on the way, probably getting braces by the end of the year. Yes, I'll get braces being 21, better late than never, right? It's really not late at all, the challenge will just be covering all the costs myself (and it can be quite expensive).
My old posts, it's funny - you can tell the way they're written is vastly different from the way I type now. I've never considered myself a grammar master, but still, there's just something that tells you how I've been growing up. But all of these ideas, they're still with me - perhaps I would phrase or put them in a different way, but the essence is there and it's still something I share with my old self.
That tattoo that I had mentioned that I was going to get? I did. It's in my right arm, a small osu! hitcircle right below my wrist and that's it. It's fun, people often theorize what it's about and ask me why I decided to tattoo it. They often think it's a kind of marble, pool ball or because I'm #1 (ha, although I did get to be the #1 in Mexico around 2008, a long time ago now). I also think it might be a bit ironic how osu! means so much to me, but I'm not active in the community and barely map anymore. Don't get me wrong, it still means a lot and I still have that wish to map as many songs as I possibly can (I did start a new WiP the other day, although that shouldn't be surprising news) - it's just that, time, time, time. But osu! still is and will always be one of the most important things for me.
I am too lazy to post a photo of it, but if you like you can look me up on facebook.com/genshaze as sharing my real identity online isn't weird for me at all now. Although... there's a chance I haven't posted it there either, or perhaps the restrictions wouldn't allow you to browse my old-ass and embarrassing photos. I'm not sure! I barely use it, don't be offended if you add me as a friend but aren't able to recognize you, or take a bazillion years to add you back, but you can send me a message at any time.
So I'll still be kicking around. Maybe I'll get to post something more elaborate later on, on my Beatmap Design blog? Man, the last post was on 2014, two years ago now.
Something that I did realize these days is that perhaps my passion for beatmapping had gone out of sight, but that's not the plan in any way - I'm trying to get back on track. The challenge is still incorporating my hobby within my free time, I think mostly having the discipline needed to achieve these goals, but in no way it has become impossible - if anything, it just becomes more achievable as time passes. Or at least, I like to believe that. This realization has come along with many other things as well, for example other aspirations in life, it just confirms that you never stop learning. And maybe I'll also share my other aspirations in life in another post.
Oh, and small mention to Music Hood's death and sacrifice for all of us. RIP in peace. :( The Facebook page has also been taken down because everyone hates me. But you can still find the archive of the remnants here.
If you didn't know what that was, it was just a blog that I had where I shared download links for music albums. The main purpose, though, was just to have a backup of the rare album finds I've been able to get on the internet. It is now also in the back of my mind to somehow revive it and keep sharing music, but that's definitely going to take a couple of months or maybe even years.
Anyhow. Let's keep giving our best all of us!
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Although I have become much more keen about the personal life details I reveal about myself, there is something I would like to share. Starting this year, I have finally managed to get my own space and will start living a completely independent lifestyle starting April - well, I have been living away from my parents for one year now but now I won't owe anything to anyone, as I will be paying the whole thing myself, and time will be completely mine. Joy! That is one of the many aspirations that I wanted to achieve so it's something I can check off that list now. Still many other things to work on.
Time has gone by real fast and it's hard to keep up at times - more so when you're just halfway through your engineering studies I'd say, although I'm only carrying a small amount of subjects and material that I should by semester (just about half, actually), so it's nowhere near as heavy as it should be. I still go crazy at times, more so thinking that I haven't even touched osu! at all - sometimes I arrive home and I'm so tired that I just drop on the bed and fall asleep. Still, I don't regret anything.
Even then, lately I feel like I haven't taken full advantage of my time, as I still doze off and distract myself with other things - you know, I'm not a robot, so no guilt. What I've been doing most lately is listen to music - I mean sure, it's always been something I loved, but lately it's been like I suspend my activities entirely and just listen. I've been paying so much attention to it... and I enjoy so much all the song variety I can listen to and enjoy, I often just skip from song to song and keep doing that for hours. Honestly, I can't think of how a regular day at work would be if I didn't have my earphones with me - and even then I only find myself I circle around the same songs, most regularly. Doesn't mean that I don't expand my tastes, perhaps maybe not as much as other people do - used to think that having 800 songs on the cellphone was plenty couple years back, now I can't get enough by having 1743 and counting.
osu! has always been on the back of my mind, but lately I feel like I've lost touch. It doesn't mean that I actually have, I'm sure it's just a matter of polishing up my technique and getting my hands dirty again - as I keep listening to many more different songs I just keep imagining how the beatmaps would turn out, so I repeat, that will ALWAYS be there, no doubt. In fact, I'm planning to get myself a small, simple osu! tattoo, just to show how it has marked my life forever and will always be a part of me.
As for the other things such as TV shows, lately I've found that I can't stand sitting still for hours watching something - I don't mean to discredit visual arts and cinema, there is of course amazing material out there, and I've found it's just me - but there are so many other productive things I could do with that time. Perhaps it's the way my brain is shaping up after being used to focus on other things all the time - the only activity like that I allow to myself is listening to music, which I've already described above. For all other things like watching movies I just prefer to work on my blog, study, exercise, meditate, clean up or whatever other activity you can think of. It's interesting, as I had never thought that it'd turn out like this, but I hope it stays this way. Perhaps I'll write a post about my perspective on this in the future.
Anyway, time to doze off again and focus on other things. May this spring break be full of productive activities!
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
Still on hiatus from whatever I used to do on the internet. Lots of life details that I'm not sure of revealing here on the web, as always. I can only take a few moments to write this, and after that, back to school and work.
It's been so many months since my last beatmap. I was actually reminded of the ones I have over in my beatmap cave because I received a notice by email that the links had expired... it led me to think that they weren't actually being downloaded. It's actually fine by me (although I still see the files are alive when accessing to the account... weird), but still, I need to keep those links alive so they're shared with other people, even if just one in a million want to download it.
Also, some days ago, I got online real quick to see whether I had a beatmap downloaded or not, and well, I must say, it was a pleasant surprise to see that people still remember me, and try to message me when they see me online. It makes me curious, what kind of impression do other people have of me now? They often say I've become some kind of legend. If I were to return to the community, would they still accept me? Now that I look at modern beatmaps, I disagree with them so much, I wonder if I even fit there anymore. I'm not sure that I want to come back and become a moderator again. Sure, I know that I'm capable of doing so but, I don't feel it's my place anymore. I am a creator... and although I also know my mapping style is widely different from what players are used to now, I don't care whether people disagree with me or not, I just want to map.
I have so many aspirations, and many related to osu!. I want to keep mapping, and have a ton of maps published for people to enjoy. I want to write a book about mapping, all the complex reasoning that goes behind creating such piece of art. I want to study mapping to its fullest and discover its potential. But all of this seems like a joke if I say I haven't written a word about it since so long ago; so am I doing anything to fulfill these goals? Of course, I have so many intentions to do so, but the truth is, yes, I haven't done a thing.
Well, it's not because I wanted that I had to get a job. It's not that I wanted to get delayed in my studies. But as any responsible man would do, I am facing it, and overcoming the obstacle... although well, regarding the job, while I'm not going to say it's something I'll have to keep doing for life, I'm not going to be able to separate myself from it for a long time. So it's difficult for me to focus on one thing sometimes. All of these experiences have led me to grow up so much, and I am thankful for it; although in any case, I am aware I am never going to stop learning. So it's a never ending cycle.
If I ever decided to progress on these goals, I am aware I can't just wait until the right moment arrives. I need to somehow fit it inside of my daily routine. That's the challenge. And unfortunately, I haven't been able to clear it. I have been focusing instead on my emotional and physical well-being (with therapy and exercise, respectively), my place for living, my studies, and meeting my financial goals for five years in the future. It's all a lot of work. I would love to say that I'm going to try harder now, but of course, we must all manage our expectations correctly: I'm probably going to keep doing the same for months to come, until I can get a more stable financial ground, until I am progressing fine with my studies, until I can get my own space and time and can lead a more independent lifestyle, which I don't feel I am having right now. Until I get my life in order, whenever that happens, or... if that even exists. But I will not ever forget of this challenge I have set to myself.
One thing is for sure though. I am never going to stop beatmapping, for as long as I live. Even if I haven't logged in in years, be sure that I am in progress of beatmapping some song. Whether I finish that map or not, I am constantly creating something. It's been something so deeply ingrained in my brain, I cannot stop imagining beatmaps when I listen to songs I like, and it's a great way to relieve stress sometimes. I just wouldn't like that everything I've created goes to waste; exactly why I publish my maps offline now. When the time comes, I'll publish another offline beatmap. And of course, my intentions for all the other things I want to do will still be there years to come.
Let's keep on living for now! I am sure many good things are coming in my future.
Saturday, September 27, 2014
So it's been some time. Yes, I know, that's what I always say. But well... there's been so much going on.
...man, it's becoming a cliché, isn't it. That's what I've been saying for the last two years. This is just another of those moments where I stop for a second to write something.
Oh brother, it's been chaos. I just came home from answering a difficult exam from a difficult subject... talking about school, obviously. My life's been consumed by school and work issues.
Yeah, that's right, work issues. This semester I applied for a job and I was hired. But then they fired me, like two weeks ago, and I haven't applied for another job since then. Long story short, they canceled the divison or 'campaign' I was working for, so everyone was suddenly unemployed, including me of course.
Well... I still need to get a job. I plan on doing that, earning money and start living by myself; if possible, move out before this year ends. It's not easy, I know, but the way I look at things, that's something I must do, because of many life situations I'm living right now. It might be a bit too ambitious but I know I can do it.
So... yes, I know. It's going to be a disaster, a massacre, and hell, all at the same time (although that might be exaggerating a little...), so no time for games. Besides everything else, various friends have also kept me away from my computer because they have social reunions and whatnot. It's not like they're forcing me, I like to hang around with them; after all, it's a nice way to enjoy my free time, but... yeah.
I miss mapping so much.
Lately, I haven't had much time to spend in osu!, although I have logged in a few times to play a bit of mania. Nothing competitive though, just to relax a little. So I haven't mapped a single thing since... several months. Then yet, even though there are infinite songs I could map, lately I've been feeling like... all the other songs are just average. Not Vietnam, not Rap God, no 808 Track (which are my most recent favorite maps by me), everything else is average, and I'm not going to surpass them. But I do have some pieces I've been working on and would like to release. I guess it's normal to feel like you want to keep improving more and more, but I know every map and song are unique in their own way, so I'll keep working on them... whenever I have time.
It's not like I've forgotten how to map, or lost the inspiration; we all know that's never going to happen. But you see, working while studying engineering is heavy enough; add to that several social activities plus many life issues, and you have what I've been doing for the last three months. Yay.
It's not like I'm complaining. Sure, it's heavy to carry along all those things, so I can't consider any online presence right now, but everything I'm doing is to build something better in the future. And living alone is going to be so awesome. Not easy, but awesome. ('Alone' is a relative term; I'm probably going to share with someone else).
Man, I hadn't realized I missed writing here so much. These minutes were worth my time. I'm not exactly sure of what I just wrote, but let's just publish it like this and roll along.
Sunday, July 6, 2014
Well, my intention is not to flame or rant (unlike my other posts), I just want to mention the position I stand in. I will always respect all different ideas and opinions other people hold, religion included.
I live with a religious christian mother. Because of that, the topic has been of importance to me, my entire life... but I didn't turn out as religious as her.
When I was a kid, my mom, of course, took me to church regularly. At first, when I was around 5, I was completely fine with it, like... I understood what it meant to be a church-goer, good kid everyone will compliment. But when I discovered videogames (or well, when I really focused on more things), at around age 9, I started to dislike going to church, because I considered it a waste of time. What that means... even though I had gone so many times to church, nothing really got into me. I wasn't a christian at heart, so it was very easy to discard that activity. Yet, my mother never really respected my opinion, and kept forcing me to attend biblical summer school and things like that. Up to today, my mom still mentions to me every day that I need to attend church regularly. I understand she only wants the best for me, but she shouldn't push so much for something that every person has the right to choose. I haven't attended church since a long time, and that, today, sits completely fine with me.
So what does that make me? What do I truly believe in? Well, it's not like I hate religion. Christianity, in particular, has been the one religion I've found to have most sense of all, and the one I'd definitely get in if I ever wanted to. But if I had to mention my religion, I guess it'd be most appropriate to say I'm an agnostic atheist, or something along those lines. I believe in God, but don't wish to follow any kind of religion or church.
I do believe in God. It just makes sense, doesn't it? How everything, from the beginning of earth until each one of our lives, has turned out... it's far too perfect to have been a coincidence. Perhaps it's the church I don't believe in... because I often feel like each church has its own rules and customs, and teaches what it wants to teach, not what the religion really is about. It's just a weird sensation I have, just a gut feeling; I don't really have any evidence to support my claims, but I feel somewhat uncomfortable every time I attend church now. Considering and comparing what each different church has to offer, feels to me like a very complex and time-consuming task, that shouldn't even be there.
Among the other reasons I have for not going to church, what I want to be the least is a poser. I don't want to be a hypocrite, in any situation, ever. I want to be myself, and I want people to meet me for what I am. That's the main reason I don't attend to church - I don't think I can call myself a "christian", with my low level of compromise with the church.
Besides, I like to have an open mind. Religion will, by definition, limit itself to its own beliefs, which of course clash with others. I don't like that; I want to listen and consider every possibility before I conclude something, every time open to new ideas. For example, let's say someone discovers that Adam and Eve were actually chimpanzees; that's a crazy new idea that explains the beginning of times, both for christians and scientists, yet I'm sure christianity would reject the idea right away. I'm not saying I'll believe without thinking twice that it was really that way, but I want to at least consider the proposition before I reject it.
The way I see it, I feel like God has given everyone proper judgement to do as they see fit. It's up to each and every one of us to follow what we have to follow, do what we want to do, feel what we want to feel. Regardless if it's right or wrong - you choose how you want to live your life. I will do my part, and give you all the respect you deserve. For now, I haven't felt a strong urge to become a follower of christianity, so it's my decision to stay this way, which should be okay for everyone.
In any case, I don't need to feel afraid of going to hell to make good deeds, or to be a good person. I think if you have "going to heaven" as a reason of going to church every week, it's a selfish reason. You need to really get into it, believe in what God tells you and obey every single thing he tells you, not just do it to save your own ass when you die.
I don't need to consider stuff like drugs, violence, or porn as a sin to avoid doing them; I just need to know the adverse effects each one of these things have. It's not that I'm afraid of committing a sin by doing drugs, it's just that I don't want my brain to deteriorate. And, in the same manner, I don't need to consider that doing good things is going to let me in heaven, I just need to really care about what's happening in the moment right then and there. I'm not being generous so God considers me a good person, I'm doing it because I really care about people. If I give someone food, it's not because I want to be called a christian, it's because I care that he's hungry and don't want him to be. These reasons are good enough for me.
Living by your own terms is the best gift God's given to us. I feel very grateful!
Thursday, April 24, 2014
It's curious. I've noticed something particular within my personality when it comes to life goals. A tendency that's been there since I was a little kid, and something that's without a doubt defined the path I chose at many points in my life. The sensation, the feeling of debt has always been present for me. Not debt like... I'm stingy with money, or like, I feel everyone owes me something, but rather the opposite. I have always felt indebted to society, even when I was a little kid.
Just to say examples, when I was in primary school... around 3rd grade I think, I had always thought having all those books to read and learn things from them was so nice. I felt grateful, and wished to repay it in some way, so at one point I thought of a way of making a small contribution: that is, underlining every grammar mistake I found, and then communicating those in some way to the manufacturer so they could fix it. Of course, I was just a small kid, and even though I had lots of words underlined, that never really went anywhere.
Later on, when I found out about Lunar Magic and Super Mario World hacks, I was very impressed. I thought it was amazing, how easily you can modify the game using the tools provided. I tried to create several hacks... of course, you tell me if a kid in junior high will be able to design levels correctly. I had so much fun doing it, it kept me busy for way too many hours, I eventually developed the same sensation of debt towards the whole community; what I wanted to do then was not create hacks, but help other people. For a short time I started to post on forums and tried to really get in the community... but well, I didn't get far until my motivation wore out. I wanted to do so many things, I even tried to learn assembly, so I could develop patches for other people to use, but of course, not everyone can do that.
You see what I mean? This kind of thing just kept happening over and over, though each time it didn't get very far. Back when I had a Playstation and had to burn CDs, I downloaded all ISOs from SnesORama, and since all of them were user-contributed, I wanted to do my part and add mirrors. For some time I wanted to enter the GDAMania community and help people create DTX files. For some other time, I found out about TV show and anime sites where you can stream episodes for free, and I wanted to help by uploading extra mirrors where needed.
It then happened yet again with osu!. I started mapping because I loved all the Ouendan games, and I thought having the capability to do your favorite songs in osu! style was the most amazing thing ever. As I started to understand what ranking involved, I realized it wasn't easy; it involves a lot of checking, from many different modders, and many different BATs. In other words, a lot of people had to help me, and when I finally got my first map ranked and started mapping more things, I started to mod beatmaps by my own will. I wanted to do the same thing other people had done with me, I wanted to help and repay my debt. And this time I really did get far, so much I managed to reach BAT status. Unfortunately, as I couldn't keep up with the community (mainly due to time constraints and lack of motivation), I decided to graduate and become alumni.
You can see there is an obvious tendency going on here. As this is something that's been there since I was little, it's not something that I meditated on and chose to do as the wisest thing to do. It's just something I did without thinking, because I wanted to do. Not because I felt guilty or felt remorse; just because I wanted to. You can say, then, that the same feeling is still present in me today, but of course, the scope is not the same.
Now that I can think as an adult, I often think of the objectives in my life, and things like that; you know, deeper and more important things. Yet the purpose of life for me goes back to those instinctive feelings: helping the community and repaying back everything society's given to me. What I want to do in my life, is contribute to society something unique only I can create. Enjoying life is my goal, contribute to society is my purpose.
I think of what everything will be like in the future, and what I wish to do then. Since I've always enjoyed electronics, and find so impressive the way they work, one of my dreams is to create my very own invention, something that will give step to greater and better things in the future. I'm a student of engineering, so I'm giving my all to understand every little subject that can be of use to me for this.
That kind of dream has been in my mind since I was little, but it's still going strong. Perhaps, to not be so naïve, even if it's just the smallest contribution to some project in some team, I want to be part of the difference. I don't want to blow my whole life working in sales, forgetting about everything I learned about in college; I want to be something more.
In truth, I speak about electronics and inventions, but anything I enjoy and I can contribute to would be excellent, too. For example, I don't think working for education, whether that's in book manufacturing or teaching, is a bad idea, because I appreciate knowledge so much, and would like to help other people on their studies, too. I enjoy videogames; if one day I helped develop a new console, or even design a single game, I'd be happy, because I want other people to keep enjoying games.
Of course though... not absolutely everything I can work as I'd enjoy. I'm about to get a job as telemarketer, client service for AT&T, and since I barely use the phone for personal things, I don't feel like I'm paying my debt to anyone. But I need the money. Yet, I feel the lack of this feeling of debt is going to have great impact in my productivity.
For example, working as a bus driver wouldn't be enjoyable either, because the buses in this town are pretty ugly, and drivers often are jerks. Sure, I want as much as anyone for them to be pretty and work correctly, that's why I do my best to not throw garbage and keep things clean, but as the buses have sometimes left me unsatisfied, it's not something I feel like I need to repay.
Is it weird that I just spent that amount of time writing this? Well, what's done is done.
Saturday, February 15, 2014
Very few people know about my other blog, Beatmap Design; and many people know I like mapping. Beatmapping is my passion, and I've been working more than usual to bring new maps to my... other blog, where I host my beatmaps offline. So as you can guess, I really, really like mapping. I've written several posts about theories and... stuff, about how awesome beatmapping is. It makes me look crazy, but I do, and I always will.
So, the idea of writing a book about beatmapping analysis and theories has been around since last year. Sometimes I get motivated to do it, sometimes I feel it's too much, and sometimes I forget about it. It's still standing, really - I haven't given up. But perhaps this is not the most adequate time yet. Even though I have experience beatmapping, I have yet to analyze many more aspects of it before I can make some kind of "scientific report" all about it; besides the fact that I barely reserve any time to write for it. So, for now I decided to just write stuff about it in my blog, until I recollect enough information and build myself up. It's all good and well, except it's exactly the same problem: I barely reserve any time to write for it.
Inspiration comes and goes - you know the deal. It's the same for beatmapping, writing, composing, drawing, etc. Random bits of inspiration may come up to me randomly during the day. Joining together all these bits of inspiration, is how I pictured I could write several posts about beatmapping. And I have written some of them down - I have several drafts in my blog. But what should be the way I go with this thing? Should it be like elaborate, well-explained tutorials... or like a normal blog?
It's always been a problem... and it doesn't seem like it's going to stop anytime soon. I barely reserve time for that. So the second option is starting to look more attractive... think about it. If I just wrote and published these random bits of inspiration... say, once a week, perhaps I'd get something published, which, the way this situation is now, is the most important thing. I wouldn't come up with screenshots, gifs or audio recordings, even though I would like to... but that would allow me to get this stuff out of me, and people would be able to know about it. It's what matters most to me - that people listen. Right now, I feel like I'm the only one in the world that can come up with stuff like this, and I certainly wouldn't like to let it die and vanish into oblivion.
The other thing is... being all independent from the osu! community, acting as a lone wolf on this whole thing. Is that really the right way? I mean, this whole outside-the-box perspective I've been able to build certainly has been very useful to my beatmapping style, but... well, I can't lie, I miss my osu! buddies. At first, I didn't get online much because I found out that chatting online distracted me from actually doing anything in osu!, and I wouldn't end up doing anything in the end, but then... it became kinda like... to avoid any compromise, avoiding questions such as "will you get online more often?" or "will you be able to get your maps ranked?". I, without a doubt, would like to do it, but the thing is that I say yes then I end up disappointing... reminiscent of my BAT days. And I don't like to do that. So I just open osu! as Guest whenever I get the chance, which is pretty randomly.
Hmmm... I really need to get it together. Being productive and such: I need to learn how to do that.
Saturday, November 16, 2013
Well... yeah, I've decided that. I'm not going to enter the beatmapping contest this time, so, with that.... I effectively disappear completely from the community.
So yeah.... I thought long and hard about it. It wasn't an easy decision - ever since I started mapping I've been interested in entering every single time, because I love mapping. It's not like I'm tired of mapping (come on, that's never going to happen), or because I'm a bad loser... I still think I have a chance, besides that it's fun to see how I do compared to others, but... well, there's mainly two reasons:
- I've disliked the song selection lately. Mapping something takes me a while, so... why should I spend so much time mapping something that I may not like? Now that I realize, I have need doing it only for the social factor and I don't really enjoy the mapping, which is... pretty vital, you know. I enjoy my time much more finishing my offline maps, and I prefer doing that.
- I've disagreed with the judging in the past, so in the end I become more frustrated. I think it's because... the mapping community so far has grown more and more with their own standards and habits, while I've been working standalone in my own world, so we can't comprehend each other as much as we'd like to.
Even then, I'm not saying I think my map should have come as winner last time or anything; in fact, you know that feeling when you see one of your past works and you see ways to improve it, things you didn't see earlier? Yeah, that happens to me too. I can't say I've dominated mapping... not by far.
Even then, I recognize something: I can map stuff in a different way than everyone else. There's a really, really deep science on mapping, and even though I can't say I'm the master, I feel capable of studying and mastering it further. I would say I've progressed towards that goal. It's something really deep and complex, that I could achieve if I put hours of my time studying mapping.
I'm actually kind of enthusiastic about doing that - I'm going to end up doing it sooner or later. Perhaps that's what I intended to do in my "osu! Beatmap Design for Dummies" book, so... yeah, the idea's been floating around for some time now, just that it might not be for dummies anymore.
I need to free myself a little bit so I can take a look at this; until I can get myself a new computer, I'll focus on what's important in my life right now.
Friday, November 15, 2013
So I think "I'll just input the same password I use for everything... why didn't I do so in the first place?" and so I try to do it, BUT...
"PayPal has detected an error: You cannot use the same password you have active right now. Please choose a different one."
WHAT?! I swear to god, I tried to input that to login hundreds of times!! What in the hell happened, why couldn't I log in if it was the correct password? I didn't recieve any kind of fraud warning or login attempts warning or... anything like that. God. That sucked big time. So now that I had to put something different, NOW I'm more prone to forgetting the new password. That's just genius, eh.
Well, at least it's over. I have a whopping $136.5MX in my account <3 hahaha.
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Jesus, this is stupid. Why in the world would you...?! Oh wait, that's right, it's not people who send this kind of stuff, it's just crawlers and spiders digging info. Yes, it's very stupid - because it's not file sharing. Granted, I'm technically not allowed to use the music like that, but it's still not file sharing. It doesn't affect the artists. At all. And you know what makes it even more stupid? That over here at my other blog, I haven't received a single DMCA complaint. And that's where it's like supposed to happen. It's incredible how stupid this system has gotten.
That makes me think the DMCA is carefully looking at what I do on this account because of my past blog... so it might be wise to tread a little bit more carefully. I might have to encrypt the MEGA links of my own maps... ugh, how annoying.
Hmm? Yeah, that blog is still alive. MEGA is absolute love~ it doesn't take down my links, not even for inactivity, which is amazing. Indeed, things are going well with the blog! Now that I can sit on the computer more frequently, I hope I can pick up some of the pace again, to do some more uploads and share music.
That reminds me, I reached another $5 over with my adfly account last month - whoopie! This time it didn't ask me any confirmation, so it went directly to my balance - and now I have a whoppin' $10 on PayPal, hell yes... but oh, the disaster.
As I tried to verify it and see the number on my account, I tried to login, but failed. So it looks like I forgot my password... since I tried every combination possible and nothing worked. Makes me think I had to use a different password because of the restrictions... but whatever. So I try to recover it using the default options - they don't work either. Damnit! To recover my password by e-mail I have to answer two security questions, of which I don't know the answers. The recovery by phone doesn't work because it tries to reach another phone - even though I remember very well I put my cell phone there.
So yeah, that's a huge blunder from my part... and it seems the only way to fix it now is to call the help center directly. I hope I can get around to it this week... I already set up Skype to do it, since I think I can make free calls from there too, and it'll be more comfortable.
Gee, so everything sucks, I know. Even adfly, last month, was acting pretty weird - I had a sudden drop in visitors in ummm... august. Who knows why. Dropped from ~60 average to ~10 - that's pretty noticeable, you agree with me. I barely did $1 a month - so it dropped to a few cents, which is very, very low. I presumed it was Google's fault, since it must receive a lot from takedown requests from that blog too.
I was already giving up on building something promising, but... surprise! I hadn't noticed last month's visitors had gone back to normal! Well, sort of.
Why did that occur, though? Particularly during those days, I don't remember uploading or doing anything special. But who cares, it's back to normal! Now, it's been just half of November and I already did another $1, yay. My hope is back up.
I know, counting just $1 isn't much. I just hope I can pick the pace to upload more albums, get more visitors and make a little money in the future. I'm building something, and it's going to be big - I just gotta keep working on it.